What do you do when...

Once again I looked around me and feel alone, like there was no one I could call to pour my heart out to and that hurts. The people I have shared everything with my through out my life don't understand who I am anymore. I think that when we count the cost of following Christ that's the highest cost, not the music or bad habits or all the other stuff. Don't get me wrong it's all hard to let go of but when measured next to the creator of the universe they are nothing. People are different, it's not that they measure to more that God but that they are physically here to hold us and cry with us and laugh with us and live life with us and we can see them with our eyes. But what do you do when everyone you grew up with or have let in through the years stop understanding you and are always uncomfortable around you and your life no longer looks anything like their's... what do you talk about when you are striving to have a life that mirrors Christ and they don't even want to hear His name. When they ask your opinion about their decisions and you can not approve and they end up upset and frustrated. What do you do when all you want is to be able to call a friend up and not feel like you are censoring every word that you say. What do you do when you just want to be you and there is no where you feel safe enough to be that vulnerable. There is only one possible answer I have found so far. You cry before God and let it all out and you allow Him to comfort you. He does a better job at it anyway. Let Matthew 11:28- 30 become true in your life. "Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke [is] easy and My burden is light." Nothing and no one can heal your lonely heart the way the one who created it can.

2011

It's been far too long since my last post.
So... a short version of that this year has been like is...

I...
started the New Year with the fam.
bought some boots that I ♥!
had a 2nd interview with Stolt :)
Photo Shoot for State Farm!!!
Redeemed Ministries team meeting followed by baby shower for Stephanie!
bought a Wii for Me.
Plastic bag got stuck under my car and it smelt like a burning weave for weeks, gross!
Noe worked on a science project & I was bored so I made a craft that turned out to be Noe & her friend Aaron... it was cute, Aaron kept them.
Photo shoot of Noe & leaves
Melissa Moved out! YAY for Melissa!
Babysat David & Jamie cause she had food poisoning
Got some info to plan my funeral (actually a memorial)
Got blue contacts!
Was hired by Stolt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Moved my desk at U.S. Alloys to help Andy & Shannan adjust.
Turning Point!
Photo Shoot of Desiree
Bought a new hair dryer & it's amazing!
Shannan made finger puppets
New purse that I ♥!
Had Pizza with Shannan for lunch :)
Dinner with Jamie, Zaid & David & cake for dessert
I bought some clothes for
Went to a Lee High School Soccer Game with Paola
Folks went on a cruise
My first & last MSCI with Shannan & Andy, then took a white girl pic
Last day ever @ U.S. Alloys & last check.
Blue Bell with Noe
Grapes on a vine in a bag
Took glasses to get fixed... gonna take a week... not cool
Started at Stolt!!!!!!!!!!
Veggie burritos
New key to my new job
Doing lots of filing @ new job till HR gets my accounts set up
Ice on roads & no snow... ugh.
Turning Point!!!!!!!!!!!!

So... Hopefully I can do a better job of blogging in Feb... We'll see.